With a loss of another mother, I am beyond words of expressing how it really feels.
My brother and I have been living with the Jones for over 11 years. Whom else and what else do I know?
They pulled me through difficult times. I honestly believe, they saved me.
My birth mother passed away 4 years ago, 2 years later my foster mum had a cardiac arrest that resulted in severe brain damage and has recently peacefully gone to sit by our Heavenly Father.
Because of her I am strong, I am confident and because of her I know who I am and that I am enough.
I will hold with me forever thoughts and memories of times when I arrived in her house with nothing but anger and fear.
She made me understand that there was so much more to life than the pain I was feeling and that I could use it to push me.
Push my education, my talents, to make something of myself. Mum acknowledged that I was desperate to escape what I experienced and equipped me with the tools to work towards it.
The time when my birth mother had died and I couldn’t get out of bed; she held me, washed and bathed me. A day after her passing, she pushed me to retake my gcse English as I really needed the grades to get into uni. I passed with a B, she knew my strength, capabilities and believed in me more than I did myself.
She encouraged me to share my story. That even though at the time I felt my life was curse. She told me better things are coming and my story could be a blessing to others. I will be eternally grateful and I owe it to her to push through.
How could I not possibly believe in a higher being considering everything that life has thrown at me. Purpose, faith, hope; is what pushes me in believing there has to be something more.
With another huge loss, this time I’m stronger and somewhat more prepared and equipped to manage.
I have learnt to let go, let God, trust my struggle and that he is there throughout it.
For those that are going through a difficult time and not sure where their life is heading, here’s a few pick ups:
. Your journey is the architect of who you will become.
. If you take away the trauma, you take away the treasure and everything that makes you, you.
. Life’s what you make it.
Lots of love.
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Akira Kay x
In loving memory of Annette De Leon- Jones 1960 – 2017
In my heart forever and always.